Well, in the first place, in response to my last blog, we are still together. We went to the counselor and I told him that I would not be tossed away and still used as a nanny when I knew he would be knocking at my bedroom door in a month. We agreed to make a more detailed list of who does what in the house. I told him that I would try not to say nasty things about his kids to him, but to instead come to him calmly about my concerns. Doing this has changed things. He may not try to change things, but he does listen, when I am calm. It is NOT easy for me. I would rather yell and scream.

I can say that I am still considering leaving. My counselor wants me to wait it out a little longer, that we are just going through a rough patch. We were going through such a big overhaul in our lives at the time of my last blog. I had started a new job and have since started another, different, new job that is much better. He has started on a swing shift and is still getting use to it. The kids have started school and activities.

I have tried some disengaging, but I have agreed to watch his kids when he is at work. When he is home, however, my answer to them most of the time is, "Go ask your Dad, not me." He is figuring out that kids are an energy drain! LMAO!

He is on his computer most of the time when he is home. His computer is in our bedroom. My computer is a laptop. I would prefer my desk, which is also in our bedroom, but due to remodeling (which is getting done very slowly) it is covered up by stuff. So I mostly am at the kitchen table with my computer. So this means I am the first to be hit with EVERYTHING. I get to hear, the "I am hungry" "Can we go outside" "Can I go to so and so's house" "Can so and so come over here" Sure, I am also available to my kids as well, but now, when it is one of the SKs, "Go ask your Dad" So then he sees how much I am interrupted.

One time SS13 asked me for help with something right in front of his dad, I said, "sure..." looking at BF. BF said, "Why did you not ask me?" "Cause you are tired" This was a day off for BF and a work day for me. How nice.... bother me when I am tired too.... BAH!!!

BF and I are actually getting a long pretty well now. It is by no means perfect and I still have my Step issues, but for now at least, it is quiet.