I know that many people say that if you just wait then eventually the skids will "get it" with regards to everything that you did for them as the sm. I sometimes feel like that is never going to happen. Things just keep getting worse between myself and the skids. First, it was my relationship with my sd that went sour and now my relationship with my ss is turning sour as well. I do believe it is because of my sd's influence on him. It's really sad how things have turned out with both of them. I still love my sd and wish things had been differently, but sometimes I feel so much anger towards her that it almost feels like I hate her! I try not to hate anyone because it isn't good for the soul, you know? Our family is pretty much being ripped apart by ONE child! I know that she would love to see her dad get rid of me. Sometimes it does get to me that we can't be a big happy family. I do hope that things get better for me in the future, but I am not going to hold my breath! I guess I should just go take a happy pill and get on with my day!