hi all, last time i posted was in 2017, alot has happened and sd is still a thorn in my side.  I cringe when I hear her name or voice.  She moved to the other side of the country chasing a guy and throwing herself at him to take care of her, she is now 30.  she finally took a course in something but figured it was better to milk the tax payer instead of getting a job doing anything in the meantime.  now i hear from daddyo that she doesn't plan on paying back the 30k loan from the government.  well that just angers me to no end as my oldest daughter who just turned 24 has been working since 15 went through college and paid her student loan off after she graduated.  my youngest is in school and plans to pay hers off as well.  everyday i have to listen to daddyo complain about politics and how the tax payer is getting screwed over but when is precious princess decides she's going to srew over the tax payer he is right there cheering her on.  everyday that goes by i become more resentful and angry.  i am all about fairness and people pulling their weight.  this is a major TURN OFF  for me.  for the past year i have been trying to convince myself to stay in a relationship where i am not happy.  oh btw christmas 2019 on christmas eve which i have celebrated all my life i planned a romantic dinner and bought all the fixings.  He and his exwife went to pick up sd from the airport and oh shocker poor baby was hungry so he decided to treet them all out to a sit down restaurant.  So when he came home he was not hungry.  I have never felt such a bunch in the gut like that in a very long time.  His son owed him several thousands of dollars and he forgave the debt even though son makes more money than him, so for sons bday he takes him out to a restaurant, clearing the debt wasnt enough!  i feel like he is a fool and his kids are playing him. they never give him anything for xmas, fathers day or birthday for the past 8 years that i have been with him.  they don't even acknowledge me. and frankly i don't care about them either.  At this point i would rather be alone.  I can't even remember the last time i got treated to a restaurant, usually he orders pizza, I think I am jsut waiting for the right time at this point,  btw i did mention we need counceling and he sat through the first seccion and than that was it.  it seems like he is telling me i have the issue .  is ther any one that is going through the same thing?