So-after 8 years at my job, making lateral move after lateral move, I got a promotion today! And not a moment too soon, COVID has been brutal on my field (advocating for the ID/DD pop-most recently Willowbrook Class Members) and honestly my heart needs a break. I'll be doing training starting next month and while it's a huge sigh of relief-the timing is kind of off. 
 

My "work mom" found out she has cancer.  This woman has been the Robin to my Batman, she's my PIC and they can't find where the cancer is coming from but it's all over her body. 
 

We are in a group chat with some other coworkers and swear that's how we have all stayed sane. I've tried calling her the last few days, and she's texted me back, I think it's just too hard for her to speak to me on the phone right now. I'm a little further away from her but our group chat mates who live right by her said she's really not doing well. She's scared and in pain. I sent a care package and I'll text her to see if she wants me to visit and I'm fine if she doesn't want that right now. I just want to tell her how much she means to me and be there for her. 
 

so yeah, I'm excited for my new position but absolutely heartbroken. She would have been my first phone call if this wasn't happening. I just have such a hard time that this great thing we've talked about me needing for so long is happening to me and she's hanging in by a thread. I'd honestly rather trade it all and stay in trenches with her if it would mean she was better.

I just needed to get that out while I count down the days to my next therapy appointment.