I jinxed myself
Lowely morning. Exhausted from our “vacation.” I wake up with effort and shuffle to the bathroom to do my business. As I sit there, I think about the birth control pill pack I’m about to start and about the internet cheapie (IC) ovulation and pregnancy tests I still haven’t used. I won’t be using those for a while. Regardless, I take out 2 different brand IC ovulation tests. I peed in a cup and did the usual. Setting them aside, I eyed the small pink packet that holds the pregnancy test. With a sigh I grab it out too and decide to try it out. Couldn’t hurt since I have gotten negatives for years. Besides, the tests will expire by the time I *might* decide to have a baby. I leave them out on the counter and do my morning routine. Grab a cup of coffee, clean up the girls mess from breakfast, and check on Sarah. I walk back into the bathroom and glance at the counter where the strips are, expecting to see the usual results. 2 faded lines on the blue IC strips… wait a minute… what the hell is that?! Noooo… breath quickening I pick up the chastized pink strip. Oh gawd. WHY does that look like a faded line on the strip??? Hoping it’s a water mark. It sooooooooo looks like a light pink color. Holding tears back I decide to post this pic up to see what other objective women thought. Even though I knew to myself what was up. Seriously???? I haven’t been on the pill for 7 years and as soon as I don’t care to conceive, this? I should have known. 75% yesses were the responses on the picture and I couldn’t wait any longer to try a more sensitive brand of pregnancy tests. I race off to the grocery store. I get home and frantically open the box… there it is. The blasted pink line was ever so clear. Immediately tears well up and I go into denial. But what about me finding a job??? What about money??? What about buying a new house??? Why did this have to happen the week before I am about to get on birth control??? I don’t understand. In all of 7 years, from an ex husband and an ex fiance, I NEVER had a positive. 7 YEARS!!!! And the minute I accept that a baby wouldn’t be the best of decisions, I get this?! What am I going to tell B?
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Congratulations! I know it
Congratulations! I know it may seem crazy to you now but you'll eventually wrap your head around it, accept it and then begin to really be happy. I'm 5 months PG right now with my surprise baby. My DH and I spent a few years trying to conceive my son. We finally did through IVF. We both agreed that he was our first and last. We just couldn't afford to have another and have both of us work full time. My DH pays a lot in CS and we have to save for college for SD too.
I also had bad post partum depression with my son that took me almost 2 years to work through and it almost cost me my marriage. So we weren't exactly excited when I first found out. We were more worried about how we could handle it all financially and emotionally.
After it sunk in we both began to get really excited about it. My DH just said to me this morning, "It's funny to think that we were both on the verge of tears in February when we found out you were pregnant but now I can't wait until she's born"
We figured, people worse off than us do it everyday, so we can do it too.
Good luck and enjoy the fact that you're pregnant. It's a blessing
I might be wrong, but I
I might be wrong, but I thought with most PG tests that if you leave them sitting for longer than they tell you they can show a false positive.
Maybe do another one?
LOL as much as I wish that
LOL as much as I wish that was the case for then, I took 8 tests (maybe more *giggle*) and all the same result. I've gone to the dr as well and it's confirmed.
All things happen for a reason right?
I get excited but then I get freaked out... it's mixed emotions.