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Submitted by newbiemommy on Fri, 10/28/2011 - 10:01pm

I love him so very much.
So I put up with sh*t from skids, BMs, and worst of all him. I know deep down our relationship isn't near healthy, but we are working on it. I know the skids will never get better, most likely it will get worse. If I were on the outside looking in I would tell myself to run like hell. I know that he may never see what he has in me and understand what I go through for him. I know I could do better. I know life would be simpler without him and his baggage.
Its as simple as the fact that I love him. So I know it will take something major to ever pry me away from him. I will always hope for that fairytale. I will always hold out that someday he will look at me and see so much more than he has had in Icky and GU. In the meantime I have STalk.
You are all wonderful people for sticking through everything with these skids and SOs. Thanks for all the support, time, and care you share!

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Submitted by habsle on Fri, 10/28/2011 - 10:22pm

If it helps any. I completely understand this. I was actually signing on so I could post something along this line. Smile No matter how much I cry and feel crappy, I still love him. I can't leave him. I'm glad someone else feels the same way!

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Submitted by sonja on Fri, 10/28/2011 - 10:39pm

Wheres the 'like' button? They just have no clue with how much stress this causes and how much bullshit we go through! *I* created the documents for a CS modification for God's sake! and it was APPROVED!

He has no clue how much work was required in that.. WITHOUT a lawyer!
I do question myself why Im here when the tough gets harder... then I see BS9months and smile.. Smile

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Submitted by Anywho78 on Sat, 10/29/2011 - 12:56am

I can say Newbie, from reading your blogs & stuff, that while he's being a total tard when it comes to GU, he IS trying at home & with your resident SKid. I think that this says that he DOES love you...he just needs to pull his head out of his patookus is all Smile As you know, I know from experience, removing his head from his butt is easier said than done...baby steps, baby steps.

I stuck it out & I'm glad I did.

Until then, I always love hearing from you...

Have a wonderful weekend!

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Submitted by sterlingsilver on Sat, 10/29/2011 - 1:00am

I get this feeling you are having as well. I was in a marriage for 17 years and never felt love. I thought I had but then when I met my SO it was like "coming home". I have such a deep love for him. Unfortunately he's got baggage Sad Two teen sons and a daughter in her twenties. They are all great kids and are for the most part respectful towards me, but they're all slobs. My SO is not a slob but his kids are b/c the bm didn't raise them very well. Oh well, the kids are not a forever thing in my home and as long as they treat me well, when they move out the mess moves with them. And the two dogs. lol