My DH was unfaithful to me.
It sounds awful but that's the whole truth. It wasn't someone unknown to me, it was actually an ex-girlfriend that came back from the past.
See, when I married DH I knew about SD and knew pretty much everything that had happened with BM including the fact he cheated on her and that was the reason of their splitting (while she was pregnant with SD). For some reason it didn't really bother me as I was deeply in love with him (and he DIDN'T love her after all, did he?).
Long story short this other woman was fully aware of BM and SD in her way and still thought DH would end up with her and leave BM & SD. That didn't happen and eventually I came into the picture. Little before our marriage I found out some messages from DH to her (I found out it was her as I didn't know at the beginning) and of I confronted him, he said he wanted to reach to her and apologize for everything she was put through so he could start fresh new with me. AND I BOUGHT IT.
A few months after our marriage this OW contacted me and I discovered that this OW had also a D and that it was DH's, DH denied it (although dates and everything matched, the girl is only 6 months older than SD, etc etc). I agreed to meet her and the D and well.. I thought that she should have the same rights as SD (God knows I didn't want another BM to deal with, let alone another SD but that's what felt right at the time). So I was working with our finances and trying to get advice on how to handle this kind of situations (have DH accept his share of responsibility even if that meant a DNA test) when I found out about the affair.
Turns out after I told DH this OW contacted me, he contacted her because he wanted to know her reasons for reaching out to me, one thing led to another and they were having a nice affair behind my back for 8 good months. After months of struggling, counseling and trying to forgive, we reached to a point where we resumed our marriage and moved on.
I later contacted OW pretending to be DH and started messing with her until she really thought they were going to run out of the country together and start all over, when I came clean and felt extremely good (it was my payback).
Don't judge me, I know I acted childish and I know that I should've seen all the bright and huge red flags and that I probably decided to ignore them...
Few days ago, I was all on my twitter when I saw a tweet (being retweeted by some random friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend) and it was hers, it didn't say anything special, it was a political joke that got RT until it got to my timeline. I don't think she knows who I am (my tw user has nothing to do with my name, unlike hers) so I went on and allowed myself to read her tweets and see what's up with her life (nothing really).
I've been having this strange feeling in my heart telling me that what I did was wrong, that even though everything that happened I should've followed with my intentions to have DH recognize this child (and pay CS as is his responsibility) but then I try to convince myself that we couldn't end meets if there's any other CS in our lives, and the fact that this OW would remain in our lives pretty much forever seems unbearable...but still...
I don't know, I'm just rambling...