Nothing is wrong with you.....a lot of moms have these feeling....but don't express them because its somewhat taboo. I wanted girls, and ended up with two boys. Trust me, you will love your girl with all your heart when you meet her. And she will be nothing like SD. Both my sons are COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY different than SS.

If you need a forum to get help and support there are site that help with gender disappointment.

http://genderd.freeforums.org/index.php this is a small site but the ladies here are so supportive and helpful

And there's wwwgenderdreaming.com a bigger site but the ladies there will help give you support too.

It's totally normal to feel a bit disappointed. The really important thing though is baby is healthy and doing well. Considering your SD puts you through total h*ll, it probably shouldn't surprise you that your initial reaction was disappointment and fear. Flashing imagines of another female acting like your SD would scare anyone to pieces.

But your baby isn't going to be a mini SD. You'll be with this baby and love her and tend to her and raise her with all your abilities to assure she grows up and is a little lady you can be quite proud of. Lots of men want a son, but very few of them actually keep that disappointment very long. He's going to love this child regardless of baby's gender. It's a symbol of the love DH and you have for each other. My first three babies were long enough ago that it's when parents didn't know gender until birth. My DH never really voiced a desire for a specific gender during those pregnancies ...we were going to get whatever gender came out. DH never failed to beam with proud and go all baby crazy with the delivery of each one of them.

You'll be a good momma. You'll sing your songs and play your guitar and rock baby in the rocker. Baby will feel loved and safe and see her momma smiling down at her while feeding. It'll be ok.

The best part of being able to know the gender of the baby before birth is that you have time to get used to the idea of having the gender you were not hoping for. There is quite a long time yet for you to adjust your thinking to embrace the reality of the child you will deliver, rather than the fantasy baby you hoped for. Your feelings are very normal and very common now, since so many people find out before the birth. It will all work out fine, you'll see. Be patient with yourself.

Girls are so much fun. You can dress them up in dresses and ballet shoes, you can do their hair in so many cute ways! You can buy them all the Barbie dolls and My Little Ponies you couldn't get when you were a kid.

When they're older you can get their ears pierced and oh so much fun shopping together for cute clothes!

They're also more prone to sit quietly and play while boys want to run all over the place yelling and getting dirty.

Afraid I'm a little biased because I have two girls.

Awwwww honey. It' going to be okay. Like the others said, it's normal to feel disappointment.

But give yourself a break and remember you have some hormones moving your thoughts around right now. I'm willing to bet in a few days, you'll realize that you could have a gold fish and you'll be ecstatic.

Okay...not really a gold fish but you know what I mean.

This is your baby and like Echo said, clean slate.

Don't let your experience with the SD and BM steal your joy.

Hugs to you and your little one!

My best friend was devastated when she found out she was having a boy with her last pregnancy. Fast forward.... she loves him the same.

My sister cried when she found out she was having a girl too. They already had a girl and really wanted a boy since they didnt plan on having more children. Now it doesn't even matter.

(((HUGS)))