SD14 got me shaking and I'm trying not to cry
I can't wait for her to go home tomorrow. For all of you who don't know. I am albino. SD14 loves to pick fun. The whole time she has been here she has been asking my husband to do things that she knows I can't be apart of like going to the beach and walking the hiking trail. Not that I want to go anywhere with her but its annoying because I know she is doing it on purpose.
This morning she opened every blind in the house and turned on all the lights. She knows I have sensitive eyes. When She saw me she started laughing. Its not a joke. She doesn't understand how bad it hurts. I don't want your sympathy. Its just that a lot of people don't understand what I go through. I cant be outside more than 20 minutes. I have horrible eyesight and when to much direct light hits my eyes it hurts. Its taken me most of my life to accept myself. I don't need SD calling me a vampire. I don't need her purposely causing me pain. And I don't need her using my albinism to exclude me. This exactly why I hate being around her. I grounded her but I don't even think she cares. I know when DH comes home he will have a bone to pick with her. It doesn't matter it goes in one ear and out the other. I just can't wait until tomorrow for BM to get back from her trip and take SD away.
I'm shaking. SD thinks this is a funny joke. I put up with this all my life ok. Its not funny to me. Anytime I go anywhere I feel eyes on me. I get little kids pointing at me. In school they use to call me a mutant. SD now knows that I am pregnant and she asks me stupid questions about the baby being scared of me. About it being ashamed. Its getting in my head. I wonder if my baby's friends when make fun of me and if the won't want to come to his parties or sleep overs because they won't understand that I am different. I know that I will give my kid a lot of love and that they will love me back. And love is way more than skin deep.
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Hug hug hug! What a little
Hug hug hug! What a little bitch. My SD used to tell my DD she hoped I died of cancer when DD was little. My dad died from it when I was 6. They can be evil.
one more hug for you
Yeah, she is b*tch. Maybe she
Yeah, she is b*tch. Maybe she will have children that don't look exactly like everybody else. We can only hope.
Things will definitely be
Things will definitely be different with your child. Teens can be really cruel. I have three in my house right now but they know they better be really careful about the mouths. Find things really fun to do in the afternoons and night. Then leave her there. If your with her all day while dad works you need space too. And you don't need to be put in the position to get too upset all the time being pregnant. Hugs to you girl.
First, you are stunning.
First, you are stunning. Wow!!! Know that please. Not only are you beautiful aesthetically, you are obviosly a beautiful person. Your calmness with SD-14 proves that. I would have gone ape shit on her mean and evil ass.
If I were your DH I would have booted that kid permanently from my life the first time she pulled any crap like what she did on this occassion.
As for a next time regarding the flooding your home with painful light ... PEPPER SPRAY or MACE. That ought to get the point across to SD-14. She is 14 not 4 and this kind of crap needs a very positive and painful consequence IMHO.
Your children will be fine. With you as their mother they will be very sensitive and it is a very likely thing that their friends will be also.
Rather than grounding SD. Sit her down, explain that you are done and so is she if she so much as says anything that could be remotely interpreted as disrespectful or mean and if she so much as makes you twitch as far as the light and pain element of her behavior you will have her arrested for assault and she will never set foot in your home again until she ceases to be an evil toxic POS.
When DH gets home let him know that she will not return to your home... PERIOD .... until he deals with the situation with absolute direct action in an effective manner.
Congratualtions on your son. Please take care of yourself.
Sincerely,
Thank you rags. Im only 10
Thank you rags. Im only 10 weeks along so I'm not sure what I'm having yet. I just hope its a boy. DH will be having a talk with her. I don't want to see her face until she grows up. I wish I could mace her so she can feel how I felt.
Is it illegal to mace a
Is it illegal to mace a minor?
Considering the source in
Considering the source in this case. I am sure I could manage to articulate to the police and cps that I was explaining to her how to USE the mace I just purchased for our mutual protection...
And because she is a teenager and doesn't listen the little twit pushed the trigger herself. Just make sure while she's flopping and snotting on the ground that you press one of her index fingers to the trigger button so its her fingerprint on top.
Omg!! No your baby will be so
Omg!! No your baby will be so different. Promise you.
This one would be hard for me. Sd was rude to me a lot too. I finally just had to admit to SO I don't care for his daughter or how he lets her treat me ( started at 13 and shes now almost 18). Out of guilt he just let her do whatever. Now he regrets some things because his old and new family are separate a lot. I'm happy that way. It took some getting used to because I wanted to be a part if their little world. Now I'm always trying to stay out of it.
This little girl is competing with you plain and simple. Not sure it will work for you but before our baby came I started disengaging. I basically made every skid visit a break from SO for me and let him do whatever with skids. I did my own thing. Once I stopped playing her game she had nothing. She wasn't as interested in her dad either.
Now SO tries to get us all doing things together and it doesn't always work.
First little heathen needs a
First little heathen needs a butt tanning, second google albino women first article is about the growning popularity of albino models. I've met 2 in my life a wonderfully handsome chinese man, and an amazing and gorgeous african american woman. Not only did they have albinism they are both huge minorities here culturally.
I really do believe that one
I really do believe that one day she will look back on these instances and truly regret the things that she has said and done to you. That doesn't matter though. She is a cruel person with a cold heart and it's almost hard to believe. Albinism isn't that crazy anyway so she is really just grasping at straws. One day, even if its 50 years from now, she will regret her actions. Especially when the baby comes..what is she going to do?? Shun her own sibling because it belongs to you? What a bitch anyway.
she needs a smack in the back
she needs a smack in the back of the head.
I wish I knew a trick or something that can help. Don't let that brat get in your head. your baby and hubby are the only ones you should focus on. your baby will love you he/she will be a better person for having you as a mother. some kids don't realize other people exists in the world and what they deal with. perhaps you should tell him is he isn't around she shouldn't be around and maybe they should do something together out of the house together (only if she is good). also, have y'all looked at window film to filter some light out?
keep your head up pretty, don't give her the power of ruining your day.