Okay so I know I have no right to even be on this...I've read blogs and I'm not going through anything of which you speak of...but I do have a to vent about the same touchy subject simply because of the fact that it affects my relationship and future with my husband. We've been married for 2yrs and he has a 3yr old daughter that I've never met. Before we we're married he had a child that he didn't know about till a year after she was born...it took 3 DNA test for his whore ass BM to figure out it was his. We were married already when he found out and the news almost made me vomit. I have dated guys with kids and thought I could handle it but its been a year already and I can't get over it. I can't stand the fact that he has a kid by some whore and hate it when he says he wants to be in her life. I have PTSD from my husband because he did hurtful things to me when he got back from Iraq and had a horrible notorious past for being a player. He's grownup since and I know with my whole heart he is dedicated to me. But for some reason my PTSD comes into play when he mentions his kid. I think about his past and although he's changed...I can't except the fact that he wants to be in his kids life. I feel horrible for feeling like that...but I can't help it. I shared with him how I felt and told him if I knew I couldn't get over this I should have left him from the start.I say mean things about her...its like word vomit I can't help it...it's like trying to make him feel guilty for being so fucked up in the past. I love my husband but I feel like the more he gets involved the more I'll stray away...I feel like if I meet her I'm going to be mean and awful...He doesn't deserve to hear me say and feel such evil things...I need help!