It was asked that i explain my first entry, and give more details. So I'll start from the start. Buckle up. Its nasty. 

I met a man, he told me he had a daughter, he explains " She is my world "  She was 4 or something, i cant remember exactly. Medium-ish, in my bio child free zone mind. We went to the annual fair, it's a big deal in these parts.. But really, its the saddest excuse for an annual anything, other than the animals they showcase. 

Things are going great, they are doing their thing, he is holding her hand, no big deal. Its crowded, what if some goblin snatched comes and snatches? He is being a protective father (insert swoon here). So, things continue, they beg me to go on this ferris wheel thing thats held up by the original bolts from the 1800's, I go because its just " too cute " .. 

*** you get the drift, it was corny.***

It's dark. We are leaving, he puts her up on his shoulders, and we get in the truck. We are listening to the radio. Then comes the interruption. " T H H I R S T Y "..

I stop, think to myself ' what in the a c t u a l hell is tha-  .."  

" W A T E R " 

Boyfriend pipes in:

" hunny we have no water, we can grab something at the store. " 

" J U I C E " 

We stop at a corner store, and he gets it. Hands it over, and the candy he grabbed her. She drinks it, then opens the candy throwing the trash on the floor.  Im like, whatever, no big deal. 

We get back to his house, ive never been. He puts her to sleep, and comes back out, " wasnt that so much fun?" .. I held back from saying why does the medium sized kid shout stuff, but can form decent sentences otherwise, and said "yeah totally, thanks!"

This should have been some red flag for me, that i wasn't ready, given my friends small sized kid was able to ask politely for things and even added a " shang yew " at the end. We got the point.

He began doting on how perfect she was & bashing her mother cause ya know, she was awful ( she totally is, but this isnt early discussion material, lets discuss those manners ? ) 

I go to leave, its late..he says " you can stay if you'd like.." We had hung out without the kid before, known each other for awhile, i was an adult and he was good looking. J a c k p o t. 

You ever been mislead by some ikea instructions before? Because trust me, its nothing like that. 

So he offered me some clothes, i was like score. We watch some movies in the living room, then its time to lay down in a bed, these early stages of back problems arent a joke, sis. 

So we go to his room, only its not his room. Its their room, and she is wide awake staring at me with no bra on under her dads shirt. Im like. Oh, shit, hi. (Reminder, i have no kids ) what do you even say to them?

It's whatever i ignore it, get in bed, snuggle up and ignore the eyes burning through my soul and the childrens movie playing at full tilt in the corner. I close my eyes for 2 seconds before they jolt open to the sound of blood curdling screams and tears.

" d a a a d d d d i e e e e" 

He jumps from bed like some underpayed superhero, boxers barely holding on, and he runs 10 ft to her bed where she is flinging her spit and doing some weird thing with her hands. He flips the light on, walks her to the bathroom ( no door on it.. Red flag 2, but... Not the point. ) and coos her while she forces herself to vomit. 

Im laying there like wow, I forgot to take my birth control. 

They come back, he informs me. She needs to sleep with us. She is scared of the dark.....

I should have known, this was just the start of my misery. 

It was awkard, i was uncomfortable. Everyone knows adults dont sleep with random kids. I tried to ignore the fact this to me, random kid was in the bed.. But it was impossible. It was a queen sized bed. The kid movie was still blaring in the corner, he was snoring between her kicking and flailing. I pushed passed it, slept on and off for a couple hours... Then morning broke. 

" daddy.. " " dadddddyyy.." 

I finally realized im still in this weird situation, and get out of bed immediately. 

He comes out, her following with a blanket in hand.  Im waiting for like an apology or even a " haha kids man " .. Instead we go out to smoke a cigarette, snd he says.

" i feel so bad she was scared last night, the dark really gets to her. "

Mind you, it was lit up in that room like a Christmas tree, and we were 10ft away from her. 

I didn't say anything. He then fills the void with. 

" well, gotta enjoy these toddler stages while you can !  "

She is 4. Like almost 4.5. Medium. 

I thought toddlers were like 2. But i dont have kids, what do i know.....

** to be continued*