I posted this last night but it was late and I wanted to let more people know about this shit that goes on with some BMs. So if you have a BM that is part of your skids lives....Thank God!! Some of us don't get that break and do the full time step parent thing!!

So was with the whole family running errands yesterday. Decided we wanted PaPa Murphy's Take and Bake Pizza for dinner. (If you've never tried it, your crazy and you must!!) I wanted to run in, order and come back out no questions or can we's or I wants so I tried to jump outta the car and leap inside. My SS 13 jumped out right behind me and followed me in; SD was playing a game on FDHs new phone so thankfully she didnt come in.

There were 3 other people I noticed standing in there. Didnt look look at the other people just glanced as I passed through. SS and I proceed to stand there, discuss what kind of pizzas to get and other small chatter. Stood and waited for about 5 min.

SS all of a sudden says; (skids havent had contact with BM in over a year) "My Mom's in here." I looked over to the two women that walked up to get their pizza and low and behold there stood BM still, lifeless, back towards us. This lobby we were standing in was only about 20 x 10 or so; small. She acted as if she didnt even know who he was. No hi, no smile, no how are you, no hug, nothing, just nothing............

I was in complete shock and just froze. I can't believe I walked past her and stood 10 ft. from her and didnt know it. My response to SS after I was coheirent, "Wow, it's a small world!" I'm pretty sure God put on my horse blinders for that one cause I'm not sure how I would have reacted had I known she was there. LOL!! She had to of heard every word we said. SS said he got shivers when he looked at her and she was staring at him walking through the door. I think he was in shock too!!

SD, whos taking the abandonment the hardest saw BM while she was inside through the glass front. FDH said she was excited to see her but scared to get out of the car. BM blamed the abandonment on the kids at their one and only therapy session the last time they saw her. After BM walked out of the store and didnt even look at her you could see the total heart break and disapointment in her lil face. She called me Mom last night too.

My heart is still wrenching for them, as if my heart is breaking with theirs.. I wanna cry again. This woman needs help!! What mother could raise their kids for 12 yrs. walk away and then be within touching distance of them and not say a word??!! Makes me sick.......seems like a movie; unbelieveable...... Jawdropping!