we got to see my stepson for a short period of time today. my mother in-law took pity on us and brought him over during her visitation. she made a big deal about it, i wish she would be more understanding... we had fun playing outside and snuggling, watching movies. soon he had to go, and i could see my husbands heart breaking. i knew he was fighting the tears. i only wish i could ease him pain.
to make matter worse, my lovely in-law that it was nessary for me to know that if my husband and i have children, they will not be loved and will not be their grandchildren... i love my life.