When I first started seeing SO, I didn't have a car, and SO was kind enough to take me wherever I needed to go. This also meant that whenever he had SD, I went with them on most errands and movie trips, etc. I absolutely hated this, but I went, because that's just what you do when someone's nice enough to take you to the grocery store and to pay your bills and the like.

On Friday, we were having margaritas with some friends, and SO mentioned that when we first got together, I was around SD a lot more, and I pointed out that now I have a car. Our friends laughed, but then SO said that he would prefer it if I could get to a happy medium between the always being around of the past and the never being around of now.

Honestly, SD creeps me out. I don't like kids in general, and she is pretty creepy in ways both general and specific. I'll focus on the issues that I have with her as an individual. She whispers to SO all the time when I'm around, and not even about important stuff. She will ask him when dinner is ready in a whisper. She will tell him that she "needs him" in a whisper, and then when he goes to her, it's something arbitrary, such as "I can't find a book" - also in a creepy whisper. I think that kids' voices are grating and disturbing when they're in a whisper, and I am sick of her fucking whispering ALL THE TIME around me. I get that she's probably uncomfortable around me - hell, I'm not comfortable around her - but can she please stop the whispering? I'm not sure how to tell SO that her whispering is a large part of why I don't want to be around at the moment.

Also, now, things feel super awkward and weird when SD is around. I don't feel like I can be myself, or relax in my home, whenever she is there. I can't figure out how to fix that, either, but I'm not going to let a six year old keep running me out of my house.