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So Tired! It's been a long time since I have written anything.

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Submitted by dragonfly5 on Tue, 10/09/2012 - 2:08pm

It's been a while, but I am always here reading, learning, listening. I finally told my SO I would marry him next year.

I hate to say it...but I am.
I wish he didn't have the skids..or I wish they were grown.

It is so hard. The fskids are nice, polite, easy to get along with but they are kids. My daughter is grown, wonderful, independent. I thought I was done with the whole kid thing.

I feel bad...then I don't. It is not personal. It's not that I hate them or dislike them. I just don't like the whole kid thing most of the time.

We have them every other weekend and Wednesdays. I am always ready for them to leave.

It's been 3 1/2 yrs, they love me and look forward to the time we spend together. I don't feel the same way.
Sometimes I dread it. Most of the time it just is.....

Thanks for listening...

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Submitted by dragonfly5 on Tue, 10/09/2012 - 2:27pm

I like having my So to myself too. Let's face it adult time is so different from kid time.

It sucks..but he is amazing...

So we deal right?

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Submitted by bearcub25 on Tue, 10/09/2012 - 2:29pm

I know how you feel. My kids are grown and was ready to have my life back then BAM, CPS takes skids from BM. One kid is back with her and we only have SD. She's pretty good most of them time but I hate not being able to just say screw cooking, lets go out and eat or lets go to bike nite or see a band and have a few on a Thursday nite.

I'm tired of grocery shopping and buying what SD likes to eat. I'm tired of never having clean towels w/o nagging to put your laundry out. It sucks to not be able to plan a weekend away w/o seeing what SD is doing that weekend. And I'm sick of Cheerleading. I hate cheerleading and I hate watching crappy teams play that I have no interest in watching.

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Submitted by dragonfly5 on Tue, 10/09/2012 - 2:54pm

Yes, hate, hate, hate cheerleading. I don't know how I survived it with my bio. I can't believe I am doing it again.

To make matters worse. She playes basketball and cheers!

The good news is most of the time the games are around 5. I am still at work...so It it "my time". My SO and the little princess and go off to the game!

Yes, to go and do and not check with anyone. This is what I have every other week it is great!

Yes, and the laundry is never ending when the skids are here...