Ok, so many of you know about the cruise we booked for SS's spring break time period- of course this was just a few short weeks before he totally decided he hated us and stopped talking to us for no reason other than some serious PAS. 

We have the final payment to make in 14 days. Up until that time we can still make changes- edit the name, cancel his ticket, change the dates to be my kids spring break-- HOWEVER, there is now a hefty fee to change the dates, so I am not sure that is in our best interest, it really wouldn't save us but like $100 and for that I feel like we should just roll the dice and play it out. I called the cruise line to discuss the insurance plan with them one last time. Originally they said that we could get 75% of his fares back if SS wasn't put on a plane (Cruise and Flight) however, after this discussion that is not exactly the case. It would be a credit for a future cruise. Which could be a good excuse for a little get away for just me and DH- so not a total loss but it wouldn't include the cost of the flight which we would have to book at the time of the final payment. If he doesn't show it is just a loss.

DH is talking to the GAL today. He is going to bring all of this up and tell the GAL that we HAVE to know what to do about this trip. If SS doesn't get put on a plane to us, we will be out massive amounts of $. When we booked it he was excited. He already picked out his shore excursion (4 stops, 4 kids- they each get one pick).

If we change the name and bring someone else, we are essentially "rejecting" time with SS. That will totally be flipped on us in court. Even though he stated he didn't want to come. 

This is such a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation. On one hand we roll the dice, a pissy teenager shows up and realizes how much he actually misses his father and we all reconnect and have a great time-- I feel like this could actually happen. Up until the end of September SS was a totally different kid. I think he could still come back to us and be his old self.

He could also not show up at all and we are just out everything even if the GAL says that we should keep it and he is recommending that SS go with us. 

The GAL could say that he can't tell us what to do yet, it is too early. Hell, we might not even have his report before March when we go- therefore the current order stands and SS should have to be on a plane to us. 

He could also show up and make us all miserable. Luckily with this scenario I have no problems ditching the kid and hanging out with my bios and SS18 and letting DH deal with it- I will still have a fabulous time in the sun with the mojitos flowing! 

I don't know what to do. I just want to puke. This was supposed to be such a fun thing for us to all do as a family. It is getting to the point where I am not even excited to tell my kids. I have these goofy presents for them to open together- A giant sombrero, a plush dolphin toy, and toddler boat bath toy- They have to put the clues together. They will be so excited!! I just want the rest of them to have a great trip. DH too... He works so hard and is such a great dad and stepdad and husband. He deserves to have a great time.