Can't take it much more
Sd14 makes everything about herself. It is so disgusting. Anything is twisted to pity herself. Seriously to a ridiculous point that people disbelieve.
Monday I went to perinatologist and at 18 weeks pregnant found spina bifida. That night thiugh I didn't want to tell her, dh told sd14 and she made whole night about herself! Never asked if I was ok or about pregnancy. She reacted with being mad and pouty that we didn't tell her Thursday when we got the first ultrasound that said something is wrong with pregnancy but no answers.
I asked her for help and support last weekend and she was a complete bitch Sunday and Monday! Then she was all in my face forcing me to "have a talk" aka listen to her twist events to make herself look better ... I said I don't want to talk. So she escalates and acts ugly and again ALL about herself FUCKING again!
I have broken blood vessels in my face from hours and days of crying, she had my 13mo old baby crying woth her hostile attitude and wouldn't stop.
I gave baby a bath then fortified myself and went and listened to her bullshit. She is happy now, but now... I can't stand her. It will never be the same. She is THE most self involved hateful person I have ever met. I can't stand being around her. She is so full of self pity its sick. I know she's borderline but ffs.
I was given appointment for fetal surgery evaluation but I can't do surgery because I have no help to beon ffull-time bed rest..the teen makes everything WORSE. Yet no matter whAt you say all she does ispick out a few words she can twist and mmanipulate to say that I said something mean that wasn't even said.
I will never forgive her. The next four years of hell and then she is out. I dgaf if she "cuts" her pitiful little self (scratching). If she causes too much anguish in this pregnancy (she was so aweful in my last pregnancy she intentionally upset me and made everything about her) one of us will be leaving.
I'm so sick of her crap. Her pitiful little"broken angel" routine. Every single day is pity party. I wish she would go live with her MIA mother.
I have to smile at her beady greedy eyes and grit my teeth when she hugs me. Oh and she is bigger than me.
I wish she wasn't like this. I cannot forgive her for the past week or past two years.
I have extreme stress because of her. I can't imagine four years with special needs baby and super-special princess psychopath and $200 a month on her therapy and psychiatrist and meds. How do we pay all the physical therapy and doctors for this pregnancy.
I don't see a baby coming. I feel like I lost my baby and now just have a diagnosis and life of work.
No I can't do therapy we have to pay too much for princess.
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I am so sorry you are going
I am so sorry you are going through this, so sorry your precious baby has health issues.
No advice, just ((HUGS))
Oh honey. I am so sorry for
Oh honey. I am so sorry for the news. You are in my prayers.
As for Miss14, it comes with the territory. She is a teen and has been ALLOWED to behave like this. Her father needs to jump on her arse.
We don't allow her to act
We don't allow her to act like this. She has repercussions and dh gets on her every time. She's mentally ill and emotionally ill with emotion maturity of a 4 year old. Her meds aren't good enough.
It would be easier if she were like this all the time but she snaps out of it for brief periods where she is rational and not delusional, and this tricks me. She has a few days being truly wonderful and sweet then BAM back to Mr. Hyde delusional selfish pitiful little broken angel.
I always fall for it when she is out of her delusions. Then I let her episodes get to me when she does it.
Dh never lets her get away with it. She had phone cancelled for nine months last time when really bad. He has talks with her and shuts her down when he is home.
I have to just send her to her room as I am her trigger and focus of hate ...yet she begs me to adopt her!
Im sure in a couple days she will apologize and be sweet and loving a few days. And I will be expected to adore her an I just ...resent her now.
I want to be positive but I
I want to be positive but I can only say "it". I'm sad and disappointed. I can't have another baby as I'm going to be 39 and don't want more problems. I feel so extremely horrible that I have such unpleasant feelings and am so disappointed. I should see it as a baby just like ds13months that just needs surgery and extra care, but I don't.
I will bawling for hours thinking I should have miscarried this pregnancy when its twin was lost at eight weeks and that same afternoon I am all positive and strong and want to look at cribs and baby stuff because I try so hard to be positive.
Sd14 made them is week extremely worse and i DON'T forgive her. I said I do so she would get the fuck over herself and leave me alone but I don't and won't.
{{{{Hugs}}}} I am so sorry.
{{{{Hugs}}}}
I am so sorry. My niece is special needs. The most important thing her mom learned is you definitely need time to adjust for yourself and you need to allow yourself to grieve for the life you thought you were going to have.
& try to remember that at 14 we were all selfish and self absorbed. Let dad deal with her drama queen behavior.
Thanks for sharing about the
Thanks for sharing about the people you know with SB. After three miscarriages, losing this baby's twin, and my only experience with spina bifida was 20 or 30 years ago with extended family member whose newborn didn't make it.
SD14 has been "normal" for two days now. She was sweet and loving and about the best .... but she's always manipulating. Surprise she came home with all F and D on progress report and got bitchy that she changed see how nice she had been, I was unappreciated of her, no one gives her chances, she deserves to keep her phone and not be grounded because she has PTSD...and poor thing can't do homework. ..because she LIES and refuses to bring it home. Boy the manipulations and lies are constant.
She is diagnosed with PTSD and shares her "raped every night of her life through childhood and on meds and cut poor self and parents are so mean" story with seriously every kid she meets!!! She lived with us..she was never abused and iF she was molested IF* it was not possible to be repetitive. Also she told three boys copy pasted this story and told them we abused her too and asked them if they will be the only one love her. Some sick shit. Oh and started after her friend got attention for having a molestation case convicted.
This girl is seriously mentally ill. I try to be patient but I can't stand being around her. Still every day I sit a d listen to her and put up with her and awwwww poor pitiful you.
Please don't take this as we
Please don't take this as we don't believe or support a victim. Police found guy Innocent then she said oh wasn't him.
We got her WEEKLY expensive therapy. Meds. We don't yell at her. My huge evil thing I mistreated her with was sent her to her room when sbe escalated and had my baby crying and me so anxious I wanted to vomit. You know in myhigh risk pregnancy. ..
Oh dr said she is extremely jealous. Sd14 was nasty during last pregnancy and day we told her I'm pregnant... she cut herself with broken glass and went on attention seeking behavior for two weeks straight.
I now just put up with her and fake it. She will not be living here after high school but I dread next four years. With two babies and one with spina bifida she will do her attention seeking bs a lot.
Dh deals witb her I hate summer though! Im home and he works.