I wrote this once already, it didn't work. But I need to tell you all my hell weekend. On Saturday Dh and go to the supermarket to buy a few things. I am about done for the day from doing yard work all morning, just want to run in and out. He is completely starving and insanely b*tchy. I digress, he asks me what I want for supper, I am telling him "how about salmon? Burgers? Chicken wings are yummy" Dispite my being sore and tired, and watching him turn into Captain Arsewad in front of me, I also don't want another weekend ruined, I keep my happy face. Let me just point out that his SS's are insanely picky eaters, unbelieveably picky! Not me, I grew up on a farm with my grandparents, there is no such thing as picky. Anywho, I show him a pack of burgers and say what about this? "Are you even going to eat that?" he says. I am pretty sure my head was about to roll of my neck from sheer shock. Trust me, I eat whatever doesn't run faster than me. I ask him why he would say that, he mumbles and stumbles his dickface attitude at me. I ask him what the hell is wrong, he says nothing.
So, being the good little bitch that I am, I just act like nothing happened. I just help make dinner, make small talk, even tell him to "come on up to bed" (maybe release some frustration)
Nope, he slept on the sofa, again. On Sunday morning I told him that this wasn't working. He cannot treat me like crap and expect me to just take it. He cannot keep doing this. He claims he doesn't know how to act around me!!!! Seriously????? I wouldn't say shit if my mouth was full of it, and he knows it! Just lately I try to engage him in conversations about our money, kids etc, and he calls it f*cking drama. Not drama honey, it's life.
So, I cry and tell him that this is not working. This is not what I want, to be unhappy, I don't want us to be so distant. That we used to have fun, we don't have fun anymore. He said very little. He said very little all day. When he came to bed it was a simple hand on the ribs, goodnight.
Part of me wonders if this is what he wants? He wants to set free with the SS's, but he doesn't know how to do it?
I just needed to get this off my chest. My head hurts.