Hairbrush Girl and I met with therapist today. Thankfully, we had planned a two hour meeting with Therapist (because I was supposed to start talking to her without SD15 present). Hubby was able to make it to the last thirty minutes or half an hour.

When I told Therapist that Sd15 had downloaded an "outlawed" app, Therapist was not surprised. However as I have Therapist more details, she became more concerned.

What concerned Therapist the most was that SD15 had shared pictures of SD12 and Nephew2, Therapist became very concerned. She said that that was a predatory move, and that SD15 should be watched with all younger children.

Therapist does NOT think SD15 should be left alone with SD12, so SD12 is sleeping in the living room with me for a while.

Therapist was also concerned that SD15 did not wait for these boys to ask her for pics, but SD15 was the instigator. Therapist says that it was unnatural for Sd15 to skip the boob pics and to go straight to crotch shots. Therapist was concerned that it got so extreme so fast, and asked SD15 if she remembered a conversation they had had before.

Apparently Sd15 told therapist that if she lived with her mom, she was worried that her mom would sell her for sex. SD15 pretended not to remember the conversation, so Therapist dropped it.

Then, Hubby got home. Therapist asked if there was somewhere that SD15 could go to, so we could talk privately. However Therapist didn't was SD15 and SD12 left alone in the house. So, Sd15 was sent to sit on the porch, while we talked in the yard.

Before I say any more, let me just admit that there is no excuse for my stupidity. I am a complete and total dumb ass. I am humiliated by how stupid I was, back in the day. I only hope that I am smarter now, ten years later.

Anyway, Therapist helped me connect some dots, once Sd15 left.

Eleven years ago, BM left Hubby. She moved out during Hubby's shift at work. She moved the SDs in with Child Abuser.

During the divorce, BM tried to claim that Hubby had sexually abused SD15. At that time, a judge ordered an exam of SD15, and her hymen was intact. The judge then ordered visitation for Hubby.

After Hubby had had visits with the SDs for about two weeks, BM became homeless. In my infinite stupidity, Hubby and I moved BM and the SDs in with us. (For those of you ready to shoot me now, for my pure dumb ass-ness, just hold on! It gets better!)

BM was very weird. She acted out sexually in very inappropriate manners, and she lied a lot. She lied so much so, that I never knew what was the truth and what was a lie. I let it go, because Hubby finally had SDs in home.

Our days usually went like this: SDs would wake me up and I would make them breakfast; then I would take them outside to play in their pool; I would grill hot dogs on the grill for lunch, and we would play in the pool some more until Hubby got home; then everyone would go inside. While we were outside all day, BM would sit at my computer (with webcam) and put on sex shows for strangers on the internet.

At night, Sd12 would have nightmares. She woke up screaming almost every night. When she would wake up, she would get very upset, and try to tell us that "Daddy" was hurting Sd15. BM tried to play it off that "Daddy" was Hubby, but when BM moved in with the Child Abuser, she made the girls call HIM "Daddy". Hubby became "Daddy Hubby".

At one point, shortly before things fell apart, and we all went our separate ways, BM told me that she and Child Abuser used to have sex parties. They would put an add on Craigslist, and invite whoever into their home. BM claimed that SDs would spend the night away on these nights.

When BM moved out, she claimed, again that Hubby had abused Sd15. The thing is, Hubby worked 10 hour days, and it was an hour and a half away from our house. Hubby would be gone between 13-14 hours a day, including Saturday. Since BM was such shit for a mother, I became the main caretaker of the girls. (Sundays were family days, where the FIVE of us would go to the beach, or grocery shopping or the park.)

Because BM had accused Hubby before, Hubby and I were both very aware, and made sure that Hubby was NEVER alone with SDs. I got sick, and had to spend five days in the hospital. Hubby stayed with me the entire time! (SDs would call daily, crying and begging to come stay at the hospital with me. )

Anyways, when BM moved out, she tried to claim again that Hubby had molested SD15. They did another exam and SD's hymen was no longer intact. My mother's brain is jumping to all kinds of conclusions! Why would Sd15 think her mom would SELL her, of all things?