Thank you ALL so very much for all your support. I can't say thank you enough. Your suggestions and comments were all so perfect.
Last night was one of the toughest nights I ever had to endure in my life! I am sad to say that I left my home this morning with my BS, and I don't intend on ever going back. I have to say that all my attempts at trying to talk with my DH as ADULTS, and on a non- critical, non - judgmental fashion have failed. And for those who are curious, is the house cleaned??? Drum roll please........NOPE! Nothing was cleaned AT ALL.NOT a GD Thing, Just MORE added to the mix.
I saw a side of him last night that I have never ever seen. I also have to say that I feel sorry for his children. I would love to sit here and say the NASTIEST shit about ALL of them (and all would be true), but it's not even worth my energy or thought process to put it down in words. My DH and his kids are cut from the same cloth! They are ALL LOSERS! I hope my DH is going to VERY happy, and in ALL his GLORY catering to his children that CLEARLY have no respect for anyone, or anything. Clearly and even clearer since last night, I DON’T hold a candle to his kids and NEVER will. His kids are his ONLY priority and talking him about anything to do with or without his kids cause a VERY hostile situation. I feel sorry that they were NOT raised by civil, nurturing, disciplining, and decent, parents who HAD morals and ethics. I am also past Disappointed with my husband. I actually have no words to describe the disgust and ANGER I have rage inside me because of HIS OWN actions. I hope when he lies his head on the pillow at night, that he can reflect on where he went wrong in all of this. And I mean REALLY reflect!!!! I am in NO way claiming to be perfect, but I was diligent, kind, and loving to both him and his children for ALL these years. I didn’t not deserve anything that happened to me last night.
I am going to see an attorney tomorrow. I know this sound oh so over the top, and oh so quick, but I have been putting up with this behavior & treatment for too long, and last night's episodes are just something I don't even want to recall. I feel very sorry for him and his kids, because Life will never be easy for people who don't see clearly, and don't have respect, civility, or boundaries.
I am past angry, past hurt, and past feeling like I am a non-existent entity in my home (If that was only half my problems). I think people should be treated with respect when they are given respect. I believe there are 2 sides to every story. However, I don’t believe a child, bio or skid should run, or have the authority to run an adults life or household.
I wish I had better news. I wish things did not happen as they did last night. But for My sanity & safety and without ANY doubt for my sons well being and safety I have left.
He is free to make a mess of the house with his rotten children, and free to let his children rule the roost and play mini-wife's and to have interactions, and talk to him and about me and my son in ways I don't feel are appropriate. Now I have truly disengaged. I have fully disconnected, and all it took was one pitiful episode from a DH that I no longer call a man.
Thank you again for all your support.. I will update again soon Hugs to you all!