First chance to practice "disengaging"
Well, I had my first opportunity to no longer do “parent” things for SD Friday night. She stayed with us that night even though DH was working, because her grandmother is visiting. (I did ask dad if he would make sure once his mom is not visiting to not have SD here unless he is here, because, in light of some of the issues we have had, I want to have witnesses in case she goes whining that I said something mean to her). While DH was still there she asked if I could make a cake for Senior Night Monday night….MONDAY….this was FRIDAY. I said no, I can’t. Well, DH immediately asked why…do you have cakes due? I said yes, I do. I then later asked him not to question me in front of her, when I say I can’t do something then I can’t do it. So then, about a half hour after DH goes to work, she came out of her bedroom and says “I think we should go to Rita’s”. This is what she considers asking. I said no, I can’t. She asked why not, and I just said, because I can’t. She asked why not AGAIN, and again I said because I can’t. I guess she figured she wasn’t going to get a different answer and didn’t ask again, and spent most of the evening in her bedroom. She did come out about a half hour later and when Gma asked her if she wanted to play a game with us she said no, I feel sick to my stomach. I was like, WTF, just a half hour ago you wanted to go to Ritas!!! Didn’t say it of course, but thought it! SD only came out of her room to sit with Gma while we watched TV for about 1 hour that night. During that entire time I had to listen to Gma poo-poo over her about her feeling bad. Blech.
It must be harder to
It must be harder to disengage from girls then boys. I have disengaged from ss16 to the point where I only cook dinner for him, and he will eat baked goods of course but only what's left on the counter. I don't do special requests anymore like I used to. There are times I feel bad but then I remember he is another woman's child and if even she can't step up and care for this kid then dh better do it b/c it aint my responsibility.