My husband and I officially separated in early February, but here I am back on this site. He mailed me divorce papers yesterday and tomorrow will have been our second wedding anniversary, so perhaps that's why I'm feeling so contemplative tonight.

For those who don't remember me or are reading my post for the first time, here's a nutshell version of my story: a little over a year into our marriage, I gently opened up to him about my emotional struggles as a stepmom. His reaction is was totally uncalled for, and shined a light on his narcissistic and emotionally abusive ways.

I think that, in theory, it's easy to say, "yes! I'm free from step-life!" I do have moments where I do feel that way. Overall, I do feel freer and happier; my best friend said that I seem more like myself now. However, there's a big part of me that feels remorseful and a lot of sadness for my soon-to-be ex husband. I will be his third divorce, and it just makes me sad for him. Perhaps remorse and feeling guilty/bad is par for the course when it comes to the end of a relationship? I also sometimes think about my SS and feel sad for him as well.

I don't even know what the purpose of this post is, as I'm not really seeking advice or anything. I guess I just needed to get these emotions off my chest.