Lonely though surrounded by people right now

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It's thanksgiving. And I am at DHs' families house. SD is being a self entitled spoiled brat. And dh went behind my back an committed us to going on vacation with his whole family despite that we barely pay our bills...no he didn't consult me at all before committing. Seriously we are broke and barely paying bills yet he wants to be immature and prioritize a damn vacation instead of getting out of debt!!!

Well we got home and dh

Well we got home and dh promptly told me I am a bitch, an ass, and that I am more immature than his kid and Thani need to use my brain. I feel like I am being emotionally abided guys. I live a lie of a life. He acts like am awesome husband around his famy and our friends and no one knows how controlling and verbally and emotionally abusive he is because he hides it from others. I even tried to tell a friend who said she didn't believe me because 'he's so sweet'. God I feel so alone. I m having serious suicidal thoughts and I don't want to be having them.