I married my ex-husband 6 yrs ago and each brought 2 boys into the marriage - really wanted to have a child with him at some point but we ended up divorcing, and during the ugly months leading up to divorce (which was his fault) he said I better never get pregnant, and that he would never remarry. We divorced and six years passed - we got back in touch - older and wiser - and realized we made a mistake and should have never split up. BUT during those six years apart he remarried AND had a child with her...and now that we've been back together almost a year I still can't stop hating him for taking that away from me...am in my 40's now and feel like I lost that chance to share a child with him. Not to mention having to deal with someone else's 2 year old (our other children are teens) - not being able to go out and enjoy myself or do "older" kid things with our boys(activities are limited with a 2 year old in tow) - hate the fact that I make so many sacrifices for a child that is not mine. I'm sure the wetting the bed, crying, throwing fits, whining, waking us up several times a night so daddy will sleep with her, etc would be more tolerable if she were mine...SD's BM is a bitch and tries to take him for every penny he has as well. Tell me, do you ever get over the anger you have? I want to pick up where we left off but it's been almost a year and I still hate him every day for doing this to me. Please tell me I am not alone.