Actually not as angry as before. Just tired.

SS14 has no idea how to study. His "studying" is just staring into the computer and wait for the time to pass. He doesn't know how to take notes. He is currently failing 2 classes. 
 

Helping him learn how to study has been really difficult. He can't make a plan himself, he has no goals either. On top of that he likes to complain about how hard he's worked-- although he really has not. 
 

There, I said it. 

SS is finally back to school, after he reported he had a sore throat and was put on a Covid isolation (aka sent home to do nothing). He of course doesn't have covid. (tested) In fact he doesn't even know what a sore throat is supposed to feel like. He'd however always exaggerate for the sake of attention. It's really annoying I don't know how much longer I can tolerate. (if he gets a paper on the fingers he'd at like he lost a limb)

SS14 just started high school today. Of course everyone has to wake up becuse now he's up. (he's loud) I am at the point where my patience is non existant, and I really hate living like this in my own home.

Everything needs to be spelled out because little sh*t enjoys finding loopholes. (But yeah, he has the balls to show the attitude being the offender)

Recently I keep asking myself this question, why do I still try (to help SS)?

SS13 is on ASD spectrum and also has ADHD. I don't want to lie about it even if that makes me sound like a horrible person, but it is mostly unenjoyable when he's around (and he's always around-not his fault except the times he eavesdrops). 

SS13 is always eavesdropping. It's annoying because when we call his name he rarely hears it, but when the conversation doesn't involve him he seems to hear every single word and always eager to chim in (but we don't need it!) even after we ask him to leave.

It doesn't matter how many times we told him to stop doing this because we really do not appreciate the behavior. He insists it's all "just conincident" (yea, right, like ten times a day).

... just need my StepTalk peeps to come march me past the denial (my inner 5 year old still coming up with butterflies & rainbows hopium wishes that this was all a bad nightmare...) and into concrete action toward Freedom from Toxic B.S.

Autistic Ss13 is never the most honest person, it doesn't matter what the stereotype says (e.g. autistic people can't lie). He lies and cries then throws a fit when he's caught and he knows he's lying. I feel there is nothing more we can do to make SS a better human being.

Because SS put 15 minutes on the Microwave to warm up his chicken nuggets.

15 mins would be fine if he was using the regular oven, but not microwave ovens. We all know that but we just can't get this to his head. It obviously didn't help even though the instruction was clear on the chicken nuggets packaging.

My house is now full of smoke and none of us can escape.

I guess I should still be grateful because we are all home and was able to put the fire off (the nuggets were literally on fire). I can't imagine if he's home on his own.

So freaking stressful.

I truly don't know it's a teenager thing or autism thing at this point. DH and I both are exhausted from interactions with SS. 

If you talk nicely to him he would think you're in a play mode and nothing you said matters. If you yell at him you will get his attention and get stuff done but then he'll act like a victim. Neither DH nor I like to yell. I don't really yell but I sure am not the nicest person when talking to SS.