You can read my previous blog or two to get an idea of how crazy things have been.  So in no particular order:

My younger brother and wife took my younger son (20) to there house for a week and he had an absolute blast with his younger cousins, helping them around and just doing family stuff-we have all been so in lock down and he desperately needed family time and I wanted him to get out of the house for a bit-did him good and he came back happy.

My oldest has had good days and bad- he did at least start the outpatient day program yesterday..so only 2nd day today.  We will see how long he sticks with it.  I met with them yesterday as they did the intake walk around, talking about the program and some evaluations, etc.   He's obviously much better then before he got taken to hospital but he's very fragile still.  I was able to get alone time with the nurse practicioner to catch her up on his condition, history of issues and also explain to be super cautious in approaching or pushing meds for now as I feel he will shut down entirely and refuse to go when the therapy portion will be very beneficial to him - so she's going to take her time, gain his trust and slowly introduce the idea.  He needs it but I doubt he will comply .  He has still not been smoking marijuana but he is using CBD-which does seem to really help his anxiety and tone done his anger and mania.  So that's a good thing.  

SD's last message was that if all was good with her healthwise she was going to keep the baby and had already (just a few days after talking to us) signed up for Medicaid, Wic, and a parenting class.  UGHHH. Seems she's already made up her mind.  I told her before she said this to also make sure she took mental health into the equation.   I think at this point unless a miscarriage happens -which can be common for a 1st or young pregnancy, she's going through with it.  Obviously DH is super pissed but I reminded him, in the end it's his decision and we can choose NOT to help finance that decision. Personally I think she's ruining her life-she is not the motherly kind at ALL.  She's too busy a self-centered young girl, tannign bed, hair/nail done all the time, travelling all the time, parties, working at a bar, getting tattoos, living a very fast life.  I dont' see this ending well at all.

Yesterday DH and I got our 1st Covid vaccine - my arm feels like someone hit it with a bat 6 times- about 6-7 hrs after I started feeling tired, headache and just blehhhh.Today is our anniversay and we didn't do anything.  I wasn't feelign it and neither was he- he felt a tad under the weather today too-and his neuropathy was flaring bad.  Maybe tomorrow we'll go out for dinner.  Oh and my girl is in heat again - we are hoping to get out boy to a sitters next week which is the tough week for them.  Our 1st week is manageable, not much change to their routine other then keeping an eye out.  

So that's about it.  Nothing good but nothing as horrible as it has been off/on.