Breaking up isn't the ideal situation.... but I can't get the joy out of my head at the thought of never having to see those two kids ever again. I have so much resentment towards them I am ultimately blaming them for ruining my relationship!!! We never fought about anything but those 2 damn kids!! I hate them and everything about them!!! I hate the time SO spends with them. I hate the room that is wasted for them to be here every 2 weeks. I hate how much they eat. I hate how crappy of a parent my SO is. I hate how fat their cheeks are. I hate the Child support he pays and how much money he spends on them each and everytime they are here. I hate how many freckles they have. I hate how they compare our house to their moms and how everything about her house is soooo much better. I hate how they ask me how much money I make because their step dad gives them money "just because". I hate how messy they are all the time. I hate how sneaky they are when they want something they can't have. I hate how gross they are. I hate their lack of table manners. I hate how they only think of themselves and no one else.

While everything on my list just lists normal kid things... I don't have kids!! When would I ever have been subjected to any of this before that I would be okay with any of it?? I understand that kids don't have common sense and lack manners until they are taught... but that does't mean I am okay with it or like it!!

It's up to me to accept these kids for the way they are. SO says he can't change anything. (I totally understand the freckle part!!) He says they are kids just being kids and it's up to me to be the one to change.

So we're breaking up. I don't want to pretend I like kids in all their gross glory. I'd rather be alone and miserable as opposed to around those kids and miserable.