so the last couple of weeks have been a little rough for me. as some of u may know i am pregnant. i have been havind a lot of pain its associated with a condition called spd (pretty common in pregnancy). but it is very painful especially at night(the only time i can rest) my 3 year old has been sick with the flu for the last week and a half. i have been really trying so hard to get everything together for the new baby. i did not make a lot of money last year so i am getting a descent sized tax return so i went get the RAL at jackson hewitt where u can get some money now. well my bday is tomorrow and i was going to use the money to go and buy some baby things and get paint etc and other things that i have been wanting. well bd NEEDS a drill for work because his went out and he needs other things for work because they are doing an inventory and it is mandatory. okay fine he is the only one working and he needs the job so i bought all the shit he needed. no problem.

well yesterday his job calls and says that he can not be off eow anymore because of the new manager or whatever so i seen the hurt in his eyes and i said, "well i will go get the kids for u as much as i can until u can think of something else." now keep in mind everything i mentioned earlier and plus he has one child with a pretty severe learning disablilty and one who is border line bad.

so this morning i wake up and its cold in my house so i wanted to take a hot bath to warm up. went to turn the hot water on....nothing!! so i could not warmm up for nothing and i have central heat but it just was not working so went get electric heaters. i was not happy about getting out with my daughter in this cold weather. its not snowing but it is fricking cold like 20 degrees and that is cold where i am from. so later i get hungry and went get a pizza and some hershey dunkers from pizza hut and was going to sit down and watch american idol. well i get home and my dang receiver is pixelating and when i finally got it to stop my pizza was cold.well then bd gets home and someone must have shit in his cornflakes today. while i am correcting my daughter he is acting like the sound of my voice is agravating him and like he doesn't want to be around us. wtf?

i would never treat him that way. how can he do that to me. he has never surprised me or done anything special for me on any occasion. he knows that tomorrow is my bday and he is going to talk to me like shit. he can walk right by me while i am upset and crying and not even console me. wat a bitch. i don't think his behavior is acceptable or justifiable. any advice?