I'm not sure I can keep this up. I've got people praying for us like crazy! When I got home Monday things seemed much better. we had a great holiday and I hadn't cried since Monday!! Wow that's pretty great cause today is Thurs. So that's two days without crying.

Everything will be alright as long as I keep my mouth shut!! Just so happens that's not my strong suit...

These sd (17&14) have turned our peaceful home into an argumentative, competetive place I DREAD going home to.

The rule is whatever they want, they get. No rules, just one big board game! The last time my husband sat at the table and played a game was when they were here last. They think daddy's house is their oyster...and guess what? They are right.

He says, "you know how you miss bio son when he's at camp...well multiple that by 6 months". In the frist place, I've had my son with me EVERYDAY of his life. My husband made the choice to move thousands of miles away from his kids. NOT ME.The only way you'll keep me from my son for 6 months is to lock me up or kill me. I'm sorry. I mean it. I made my choice too.

I don't think I should have to put my whole life on hold for the summer because he chose to relocate years ago. So now they try and cram a whole year into a summer. We go from one activity to another. We can not manage even 5 minutes alone "daddy" 'daddy' daddy ect....

The also talk awful about their mom and step dad. They complain about the rules..I said, 'how dare they! they sound like parents." I think this has gotten them sympathy from my husband in the past.

If you read this, and believe in prayer, please pray for me! I'm struggling!