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Tearful after weekend

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Submitted by dazed on Mon, 02/11/2008 - 7:52am

If I repeat myself I'm sorry,just need to talk.After a weekend away I went back to BF's and 'SS' was there.Friday I was fine and upbeat.Sat and Sun 'SS' came.His phone went off in the living room anytime from 5 a.m and woke me up.I went and turned it off (I thought).Then it went off again, so I'm up again.All the time BF and 'SS' are sleeping.'SS' says it wakes him up for school in the WEEK (where he lives at BM's).Put it in your room then or turn it off at wknd! We didn't actually argue, we just 'got on' as normal not doing much. BF said something about 'SS' phone, but a bit jokey.The whole house is left with food items and things he just leaves.I was so tearful on Sunday and shattered at work today.Now BF is coming over to my house tonight and I'm tired.There isn't much passion going on.I have been with him 9 years and we haven't had any kids together.He is inconsistent in his ideas on this.His whole focus is on 'SS' and we don't talk much.I've almost given up.He can't deal with my insecurities and neither can I really.I feel like a frumpy woman and I didn't before I met him.That's it for now ty

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Submitted by Sita Tara on Mon, 02/11/2008 - 8:32am

I was very energized, felt beautiful and fit when single. Now I am a matronly stay at home mom. My highlight of the day is playing with toddler and snuggling with her for a nap.

Oh...and m and m's while watching Days of Our Lives. I watched it as a teenager, then stopped all my adult life because I had too much excitement in my own life for the melodrama of a soap!

Now...it's vicarious living again Sad

Frumpy. Yep that's it!

I'm sorry for what you're going through. It is hard beyond belief to raise someone else's child, especially if the other parent undermines what you're trying to do, AND/OR your SO doesn't support you, nurture you, inspire passion for the relationship or life in general.

Just wanted to say

HUGS

And have some wine and chocolate. Doesn't help the frumpiness but by the second bottle you stop caring Wink

Peace, love, and red wine