And .... right on cue
The step kids are back and so are those feelings.
I use the time that they arent with us to have positive thoughts of nice things I can do , or cook for them when they come back, but it just turns to shit!
Its nothing inparticular, again, but just the headnoise. I just wish I could switch it off.
Does anyone else feel like they need anti depressants, on the time they have them? Just to be able to relax and switch off?
My partner is very supportive and listens to me when I blurt out my feelings, which just makes me feel even more guilty afterwards.
Its like when its my kids, I can say and do what I like without that guilt, but when I pull the step kids up, I just feel like I'm riding them... Hopefully it gets easier!!
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I used to feel guilty.
I used to feel guilty. Wondered if there was something wrong with me. Turns out it's just simple biology, wiring females to be territorial. Oh, and the fact that the SDs are a$$holes.
I 100% understand what you
I 100% understand what you mean about how you can say whatever about your own child but when you do about your step - you feel so guilty! And my SO also sits back while I vent to him about SD, which only makes me feel more guilty.
I don't do much venting about DD, as she's only 1 so not too much to complain about lol but with SD8 I feel like I'm constantly critiquing her - personality, life skills, education level, interests. I chalk it up to the fact that BM is a poor parent and SO EOWE visits don't contribute a whole lot to her overall as a person.
Also, the fact you feel guilty means you're not a terrible person. It's hard dealing with someone else's child(ren) that you didn't create nor have influence over their upbringing so you're basically just stuck to deal with them the way they are. How does a person not vent about that?