I feel like crying not venting not even sure i should be on this site today.

SD14 was making snide comments all day yesterday about killing herself. talking about it. damn near all day. said she was going to drink bleach. talking about cutting. soaked her arm in bleach trying to hurt herself. Finally DH had enough sent her to her room from there u could tell she was throwing shit. she would let out a scream. just everything to gain attention. i walked by to take my 2 year old potty. she had her sleeve up scratching herself like a cat in a manic. well i grabbed her hand and said show your dad. she hit my arms. i removed my hand quickly andgot behind her and she went to the floor screaming and yelling and hitting me, dh got the cammara. i restrained her she was out of control. she kept screaming i calmly said as soon as u take a deep breath and calm down ill let u go. the screaming continued. finally i said it again. she took a deep breath i got up as soon as i could and made her show her dad her arms she ran for it . Dh got her and put her in a restraint. she was fighting it she went face forward into a book shelf. busted her chin and bruised it. I pretended to call the police (i wish i would have) she balled espcially when dh made her watch her on the video. she said she had no recollecection of any of it. i left i took my kids to a mcd's to play in the playplace it was all in front of my two boys 2 and 5. he went to cps this morning before we get another stupid case opened on us. he figured he would just jump the gun. well they told him if the school calls they would open and investigation. just keep doing what we are doing its the right thing. i sure don't feel like it.

i just told dh he needs to stay somewhere else with his daughter untill these things are over.

all i feel like doing is crying.