Havent been as active on here during the last week. Reason being is that about a week ago, I received very sad news that the law firm I have enjoyed working with for 10 years is ceasing operations along with the senior partner retiring. His retirement is very much deserved, so question about that. But business has gotten lackluster and was more of a decision based on that too. I guess the WHY doesnt matter since the situation remains the same. I am still needing to have to line up another job soon, having to start over and lots of changes are coming fast in this realm of my life. 

I am still feeling blue, going through the whole range of emotions,  since this was alot more than just a job to me. My collegues have become family and friends, which you cant have everywhere, and have been nothing but good to me. I actually respect and like  them alot more than some of my actual relatives ( take a while guess who LOL) 

Speaking of which, I am not posting about this to garner sympathy, attention and be all like woe is me ( paging SD30) , since I know I am far from alone and others have been or currently are in the same boat. 

 I dont know about you, but I personally do not know of anyone who has been living on Easy Street all this time. You always have a choice to either let fallbacks motive you or just cling onto them as a means to make excuses. 

The last thing I want to do is allow this unexpected turn of events to beat me down to playing the perpetual victim, like SD and like most of other's stepskids are since that they have also chosen the same path in dealing with life's stressors. 

I am not even wasitng too much time feeling sorry for myself either, since  I had already started the processing of job hunting and have had two interviews completed this past week already. Sure, I could just cry and sulk  in the corner like SD, blaming everyone and everything for my circumstances and not even bother to TRY to turn things around on her own. Her way of dealing is to use any shortcut she can come up with or find somone willing to let her leech off of them to her advantage instead. She just throws up her hands in defeat whining about how "she doesnt have options like anyone else" , so she just doesnt try, which is I feel is truly being a failure. 

Like her, I could also feel so entitled as to expect everyone else to drop everything to enable me or try to unfairly place the weight of my problem on the shoulders on someone else in lieu of taking on any effort beyond the ( barely) bare minimum. , like my SD does.

I am not trying to say I am better than everyone, but the vastly different ways of dealing with life's setbacks between SD and I is yet another big reason why no one should even wonder why I dont feel like we dont share nearly the same values and why I lost respect for her. .Another reason why I just cant relate to her, unless I was as content as she is to consider Welfare Queen and Professional Victim ( or a prostitute , which she probably counts as a customer service job, lol) as a suitable solution.