Im currently deployed in afghanistan right now and still even being away from the skids and their mother i still get the short end of the stick when it comes to MY daughter...my husband has his kids every other weekend and one day during the week...since it is now summer vacation, and im gone he has blamed me for not seeing them everyday during the summer. it is a job i chose to get his ass out of debt. i made sure he was working during the summer so HE can pay HIS childsuppot. and bc we have a daughter together, i pay for her daycare so he can work. but reality is he doesnt want to work, last summer i was home, so our daughter wasnt in daycare. he chose to work nights durng the summer so he can spend time with his kids during the day. so now that he doesnt have that luxury its my fault that he cant see them like He wants to. I mean its not that id like to have some time with my husband but is nearly impossible. its always the exwife needs this done or that done and interfers on anything we could have planned.
in this case since i am deployed, i only get to talk to my daughter once a week and its hard. shes not even 2 yet and its my first duaghter (since moving up there and dealing with huge issues he has with his kids and exwife, i hav ebarely enjoyed being a mother, bc he throws down my throat how i need to be there for them like i am my daughter...) i ask for pictures and he gives me a hard time bc he doesnt feel like it, or its just too much but when the ex has him driving all across the state for hte other two, he has no issues. he cant do something for me bc of the kids for whatever reason. that he has it hard enough as it is. i moved up to indiana so he can stay close to them and now its STILL my fault he doesnt see them or doing small gestures for me interferes in their schedules BTW they are lazy ass, inconsiderate children.
im just sick of the fact that every excuse is bc his other two children- yet he "doesnt get to see them" he cant do something bc its hard getting a 20mo old to do anything, and he cant do something bc he has all three kids and if they arent there he cant do something bc he doesnt have the help of his older kids????? which they do nothing trust me. my sd can recite every single line in those damn nickolodeon shoes, my ss cares more about video games....and thats the crap IM interfering with that i cant even get a decent picture to see my daughter.
ive told him that i want nothing to do with them and whatever they do...i just want to know about my daughter, hows shes doing. and now im the bad person -because even though this is exactly what he is doing, im not allowed. i dont enjoy being a stepmom, not the way things are at home. its completely consumed everything.
also, if i buy my daughter something i get crap bc i didnt buy his kids anything. my daughter is 20months, his are 13/7. they have plenty of useless crap, most still in boxes. but anyway. this is the stuff i tell him- all i am is some bitch and taking it out on his kids. when all it is, Im deployed in a different country and just want to talk to and see my daughter. and he makes it a difficult task. i probably make no sense bc i am just angry inside and theres nothing i can do or say from here.