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stepm0nster's picture

I fantasize about my own apartment with my own children. I don't even care if it's a shoebox. My shoebox will have no sourpuss stepshoes in it. It'll all be my say, my rules and up to me to follow through with my own ideas with my kids.
Sad, really. Life can turn so quickly and unexpectedly. I often think "if i knew then what i know now, would i?" and i don't know. I certainly would do all i could to prevent anyone i know from doing it.
I have to wonder, when i was a stepkid, was i a nightmare, too?! I know i was moody. I never talked back or was disrespectful to my stepmother. She was ogre-esque and slightly frightening. Also, i rarely stayed with them over the weekend. I thanked them when we went anywhere, and i thanked she and my father anytime something was bought for me. I didn't offer to do dishes, but their house was a wreck and my stepmom never cooked.
How is there such disgusting enabling and ass-wiping these days?! How and why do we allow so many hall passes to these brats? It's terrifying! My stepkid's generation will be the ones teaching and policing MY children! Not ok!

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3familiesIn1's picture

I have lately had those same thoughts more and more and it scares me. I am not wanting to divorce DH over his kids and lack of parenting, I really don't want to.

But when I find myself taking a double look at the condo's near my kids school knowing that in the back of my mind those ones might be at the top of my list to look at so that my kids stay in their school district, when I have found myself thinking well if I went W2 here I could get benefits as they have been offered to me and I should see how much they are a month just so that I know, and I find myself thinking, it would be ok, I would just do more hiking and camping which are things I love and that isn't so bad...............

scary. really scary.

Shaman29's picture

My shoebox is full of books, my favorite music, my plants, tension tamer tea, my favorite mug and my cat.

The TV is not on every waking hour.

There are no stepshoes in my shoebox either.

Shaman29's picture

OMG! The last line of your post.

I am having to stifle my laughter because I'm still at work.

Oh holy crap I cannot stop laughing.

Halo_Horns's picture

Preaching to the choir DTZY! Those distant memories of the only stress being 'the batteries r dead'..

stepm0nster's picture

Seriously! And even if the batteries are dead, it can still be useful unlike the real thing. .. and you can stick it in a drawer however long you need and it doesnt object or fight you about it.