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My Mother Passed

thinkthrice's picture

Last week at age 89.  She led a permanently depressed life mostly, IMO, due to being confined to the role the cult assigned to her.   Absolutely nothing physically wrong with her no health issues nor disease . My younger sister, being an only child (well that's what it felt like as she was the golden child) has made a great deal of mourning posts on social media.   

Of course she was always seen as the "loyal" child having not officially left the cult as I had.  Even though she has no intentions of rejoining and was much more "sinful" in her life than I have been.  

My mother and I never bonded... which I don't blame her for as her own mother did not bond with her and all her siblings were farmed out to relatives they did not know when her mother had to go to psychiatric institutions.    Ironically my sister and I were farmed off to our paternal grandmother who did not care for us too much when Mom went into these places quite frequently.

My father at age 90, still clings to the tenets of the cult and as of yet, I do not know the time nor place of any memorial service 8 hours away.  Because of the religious shunning I hear things only second hand.   My sister has nothing to do with me out of a sheer feud;  she is the purveyor of all information.   She's probably relishing the control although she is probably one of the more irresponsible people on this earth.

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JRI's picture

You've lost not only your mom but any fantasy you ever had about her recovering and being the mom you wanted.  I'm sorry 

I'm the black sheep, too.  Also known as living my own life 

It's still sad about your mom.

Rags's picture

My condolences.

Take care of you. Keep the toxic at a distance.

Give rose

CajunMom's picture

So sorry. I fully understand being shunned and being the black sheep. Still does not make it easy. Sending you love. 

AlmostGone834's picture

I'm so very sorry. I know of people in the cult too and it absolutely destroys lives... in so many ways. I think you are the white sheep in a family full of black sheep and I'm so sorry you never had the relationship you deserved with your mom. Focus on your son and all the people you love in your life. We can make our own families.