Hello All,
I have been dealing lately with a woman I cannot recognize. My SO has been in extreme pain and is going for a cervical epidural tomorrow to relieve the pain in her shoulder. I do not want her to go to fix the symptoms instead of the cause, (bone spur), but I am being supportive and have offered my help in any regards. I wonder how the pain has affected our relationship?? Upon giving her time (breaking up) I have spoken to her on several occasions and she is very resistive of my positive advances. I seem to push her away when I am trying to be proactive about our relationship.(although she smiled from ear to ear when she heard I was running again, what was that about??) When it is most convenient for her I am going to tell her that:

'Heather, I love you, I have made some mistakes in the past and with those mistakes I have both hurt you and as I have pushed the issues, I have pushed you away and you see me as a different person. I ask only for your forgiveness as I work on my issues and although I hope for a fairytale ending in all situations I understand that it MAY not happen between us, although I hope it does. I was wrong, I admit it and whole heartedly take responsibility for my actions.'

Listen ladies, I know you all have told me to move on but my heart has always been in the happiest place with my SO and her boys and I am not ready to throw in the towel just yet. Perhaps I am only prolonging heartbreak but she is a human that I LOVE !!!!

Thanks for all of your support!!

Kevin The Man