So as you may know from my older posts, dh has had temporary custody of ss9 and "ss"6 (not his bio) for the past 2 months. "ss"6 has add/adhd and some real mental issues. he is a handful. i have my hands full as it is with our dd3 (wild child) and ds7months, i work full time and the only one to cook or clean in the house. i am just about to loose my mind. bm should be getting out of rehab sometime this week and cps placed her daughter who is 2 in her custody at the rehab so i think she was told that she would be able to get the boys back when she is released.

anywho, last week dh decided he wanted to go to a concert that was an hour away and asked if i wanted to go. i did not want to, so he went with some co workers and they decided to stay the night. no big deal. i told him he needed to find a babysitter for the skids though. i refuse to babysit. i have enough on my plate. so he takes them to bm's sister's house and they stayed the night. they always did that when they were with bm but now that they live with us, they never go anywhere. we are cramped in a tiny house and i just wanted one night with just me and my babies. i usually spend every evening in my room to avoid ss6. he is ALWAYS into something and i just cant handle him. he does not listen to me what so ever. if i tell him to do something, he runs to "daddy" and "tells" on me...ugh. the kid messes up everything he touches!! seriously! he draws on my expensive dinner table, breaks everything, left crayons in my backseat that melted into the seat, took my brand new notepad and wrote on every single sheet, broke my 3 yearolds colors, tricycle, plates, etc. i just want him to go home....i take anxiety meds and i'm telling you this kid is gonna give me a heat attack. i'll admit im a little uptight but i am who i am. that's not going to change, i've tried.

sister in law asked me to go see a band this weekend with her, i tell dh and he said get a babysitter. and when i told him no you will watch your children he said f#@! no! ... oh no sir. he tells me that since i made him get a babysitter for the skids i have to for our children. no, they are his children and he needs to keep them. skids are not my children, i need a break. he got his!! i cant tell you how many times (before the temp. custody agreement) dh stayed out sometimes all night and i stayed home. i am a homebody, gladly. i love my children and love to be home with them. i guess i'm just mad becuase he volunteered to be another childs father and doesnt mind taking him into our home but will refuse to watch his own children for a few hours... i am expected to cook and clean for his kids daily but that is never taken into consideration or appreciated...now i feel better.