Being a step parent is harder then being a parent. And how can he tell me this when he isn't even the bio dad he is technically just a care giver. He tells me things will change don't worry I don't want to loose you. But how will things ever change? The kids aren't his which makes me resent them, "which then makes me feel like a horrible person", I could Handel him not wanting kids before cause a least I thought the children were a part of him but they aren't. And kids aren't stupid they are going to find out. What happens if one of them gets sick and he nor BM are a match because he's not the dad. Does he kid really deserve to go through that. So I am here rasing kids EOW, thurdays and for the summer when the children aren't even his. I'm going to end up having to sacrifice all holidays so the BM kids have time to see his family and hers. So I get to see almost no family. I told him that I don't think he relizes how much he is asking of me. His response was we will work on it as we come and the kids are here to stay. Which I respect him for he raised SD4 sense she was born and SD1 he doesn't want to be like ok SD4 come one over and SD1 screw you now. Says it wouldn't be fair to SD4. Am I wrong to say what about me? Right now I don't want children but what about down the line....I find my self more and more sad everytime I see a pregnant person knowing that I will never have that if I stay here. It's the fact that if I ever wanted one that choice has already been made for me. He says he wants my body to stay the same and not get all stretched out and doesn't want the responsibility of another. The first two arent his. I'm sick to my stomach with confusion. Don't get me wrong he's not all bad or else I wouldn't be here. But this is a big struggle and I am still lost. BM is still a major issue with her being mean to me. If he doesn't start to stand up for me or allow me to stand up for my self with out getting bitched at from him I'm going to loose my cool.