...of a somewhat hostile nature. I will not say what has transpired because until it actually happens I don't put a lot of stock in it. I will see how this week goes and will update you all from there.

Yesterday I went to my moms house all day, I then went to my best friends house and ordered out dinner with her and her husband and son. She offered me a place to stay if need be (they have a finished basement with a bedroom and bathroom in it). I brought my mom eggs and she made breakfast. My puppies were born yesterday! A purebred AKC papered black Lab with lineage and a pure bred pitbull. It was an accidental pregnancy but I suspect many are... They look to be adorable and were born shortly after I left! Over all I had a nice day. SO was deeply upset that I did not come home for dinner - though he was there. That he had to take care of the dogs himself (he took them from his and Princess's house during the divorce and somehow they became mine) and that I was unable to give him a time when I'd be home (I ordered take out and my delivery man crystal ball was broken - I told him when I was done eating, what more did he want?). He was very upset that I did not acknowledge his presence when I came in - I needed a shower, and that I was acting like a douche. I told him I was sorry if he felt that way. He pouted and threw his laundry all around and shortly after this the hostile negotiations came about.

This blog "is giving me a distorted view of the situation" and I "need to get the fuck off of it" according to SO. I just wanted you all to know you are a negative terrible influence on me for giving me support while I figured things out FOR MYSELF because I am not a big girl now and am incapable of drawing my own conclusions. (sarcasm) I said sure I'll stay off of it - I could stay off of it, however IT is not skewing my view and I really think you just don't like the idea of other people actually agreeing with me and the rest of the world indicating that YOU are wrong. I also don't think you like the idea of having anything come in the way of having You and Yours cared for. I informed him the free ride had run out. He informed me I was being selfish and acting like a child. I informed him he was the only one yelling and stomping around in the conversation and thusly HE was the only one acting like a child. I also told him that not protecting me in case of emergency and financial ruin or break up was selfish and rude and that out of 4 possible blood related adults of age and available to care for the minor children, why was the equivalent of a stranger raising them? After this the hostility changed and the negotiations resumed on a much nicer front.

I will let you know which way the Cinna will go.

Turns out that I have a friend who was never a close friend - more of an acquaintance that I just recently started to get to know! She has almost an identical situation to mine - right down to the SO issues and details. Her only difference is that she and BM get along fabulously and BM is super cooperative (does that actually exist somewhere? Mind is boggled). She has given me some GREAT advice and tips on how to improve my situation from real experience and I am grateful to have her advice. It was like Steptalk IRL! I almost told SO that "my fucking blog" wasn't the only one saying he was being a dink. I decided not to since her and her family will likely be joining us on our family vacation in March - that is if we go lol. I don't want to create any animosity.

Anyways I will be taking myself out to lunch today, and likely going to go to the bookstore and buy a book and possibly buy some pretty underthings. Something about buying pretty underthings makes every situation much better hahah! Oh yes ladies. MissCinna will not be dragged into SO's bullshit tornado! I will do just fine and we will see where life takes us!