For everyone that has told me; The first few years are the best years with your significant other.
You are a;
A. Liar!
B. Are oblivious to real life.
C. You are playing house..and it's not a game.
D. A combination of the above A-C

These past few months have been difficult for both of us. Not only did I moved to Kansas from Texas..
I am also; not working or attending school..Which I had been doing both simultaneously for over 5 years.

I moved from living alone..and perfectly OK with that just sometimes lonesome to an instant family part time and then the other part just me and my boyfriend. I kinda feel like I was false advertised a bit...but I just had blinders on.

I think the bickering will slow down once I get a job and don't have time to be stuck at home all day. Thinking, pondering, worrying.. I am good at all of that!

I do enjoy my mornings and afternoon alone time during the week. But I also look forward to spending time alone with him when we do have it.... But, he works late or wants to do his own thing and I understand he needs his own time after work. We talk about things, like our future, the kids, finances, etc. But sometimes when I am being serious he starts talking about some off the wall subject. I know I can be "too serious" but he is "not serious enough"

I have learned how he processes when I talk...from previous experience with my own family.. I can't yell at him or he shuts down or yells back but what he yells usually makes ZERO sense and I sometimes start to laugh.

I remind him to do things and he usually puts great effort into it..but then never completes the task. I do yell sometimes, and I do sometimes let my guard down. But I am not as stubborn as before and I do apologize.
I have to take a breath and remind myself that my expectations are probably too high and if I met a man JUST like me..we would of already killed each other or major damage. Ha ha.. no- Seriously.

I just need to think of ways for him to understand how important some things are in life. Without feeling like I am his mother. Am I really over thinking this? Is this how the majority of men are? I say important like..getting to work on time.. or finalizing paperwork from your divorce.. I don't want to sound mean or crappy he already gets that from his Ex. I want to support him and feel I have been very good about not saying a word to or around his Ex. (Patting myself on back)

I love him and his children. I would do anything for them. I am willing to continue to compromise, trying to pick and choose my battles, and I just have to learn more patience and gently pushing him toward goals we have together. Most of all I have to remember that everything is in Gods hands..

-Just Breathe-