So, SD had her baby shower this weekend, it was beautifully done and very nice.  I ended up going with a playpen combo that has a changing table and bassinet.  She and fiance are leaving next week for out of state.  Apparently, all the Medicaid was transferred and approved (so they say).  Still upset they are leaving, but it is decided and hopefully, it works out well for her.

We had yet another crisis with my older son, so had the crisis unit and sheriff deputy over yesterday.  They didn't have enough criteria to 1013/admit him but they did make him sign a promissory note to start therapy asap.  We all talked a long time, the deputy was absolutely amazing.  The good news is they did call him back from a job interview, he's supposed to start this week.  He was also warned that I will be calling the sheriff EVERY time he becomes destructive or verbally abusive (also slamming doors/cabinets, etc) and that it will create a paper trail and make it to where he either gets arrested or 1013'd into treatment.  He's been much better since his last outpatient long treatment but started going down hill some weeks ago again and then this weekend all exploded out of control.  They also told him in front of me that if he does NOT follow stipulations of therapy and job, I will start the formal eviction process and he will then have to go to a shelter, which is a 50/50 chance he can get himself together or go way downhill.  

He made the call to the therapist to set that up as well.  They also told me to no longer buy his 'wants' (cbd and vapes) - the only reason I have is because he then escalates his behavior and makes it HELL in the home if he doesn't have it- so now they told me in front of him, I won't do it anymore and that if he tantrums that i will call them EACH and everytime. Creating a strong paper trail and evidence for another commitment.  I think he took it all seriously and has a better grasp.  The deputy told him your mom is 100percent DONE and she WILL kick you to the street, get it together or I will escort you out myself.  

DH had already said he was going to be spending time at my MIL's if things continued as they were here (don't blame him)- and who knows, it may still go that way even if my son gets better just based on OUR relationship issues.  

Feeling exhausted and sick of it all.  STILL no good job responses.  I sent two that were a VERY good work for my skills and nothing.  Even though I also KNEW people that worked in that dept.  VERY discouraged and upset, broke financially, broke emotionally.  Life just has been very unkind.