Dear EBU, you are well versed and (overly!) familiar with living with a narcissist.
You have it worked out and know the score. You have disengaged from wickedwitch and clawed back a degree of control and contentment in your life.
Yet, no doubt you still are captivated by the (what is it they have? some sort of magnetism, idealism, promises, 'the one', 'it') need of him.
I suppose my question is, what keeps you there when you know what he is?
This is in NO way judgement. I left my narcissist DH for 2 years and yet he still had my heart and my soul and my love, and all I felt was that there a limb missing from me without him - even though I knew he did not and could not love me back.
Now that he is dead I have true freedom and happiness, which is awful to say about someone, yet it's true.
So, in order for me to understand why I so desperately wanted back with him (and did get back with him) it would be enlightening for me to hear reasons why women stay with emotionally void men.