Hi everyone,

I really appreciate this site, I think this is the only place I can get things off my chest. Some of you may have read my other posts but in case not, I have 4 bio kids and 3 SS's. all full time BM is not in their lives because of drugs, jail. My two oldest kids live out of state and are in college. I have been trying had to do less for my step kids recently. I have been taking my DS to the store and buying him things, but not really his very much, I also help them all with their homework, but haven't really been going the extra mile for my SS's like I used to (youngest is 4 so only 2 are in school right now) yay the youngest starts this year. I have been trying hard not to get as mad and stressed as I used to with the constant bed wetting and damage to my house. the ss4 just made giant holes in the wall while DH was supposed to watching him. Ive managed to have 4 kids of my own and none of them wrecked the house like these kids. Sorry this is rambling, I'm just feeling anxious I guess. Hubby is leaving to go out of town to a work event today and wont be back till sunday night. Oh happy mothers day to me with all the kids by myself HA!!! anyway my main issue is with my ss8 who has ADHD and is on medication. Hes doing great in school now, but he is just so annoying all the time....worst part is I feel like I resent dealing with him because hes not my DH son. His BM had an affair when they were married and told him it was his son, so he's raised him since birth. I feel like at least my ither 2 SS's are my husbands children who I love, but this kid is his ex-wifes kid by some other guy! I feel guilty but a lot of time wish he would go live with someone on her side of the family. Of course I have never told DH this, I just try to deal, but some days are worse than others. Thanks for listening.