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Submitted by Delphi on Wed, 07/27/2016 - 10:06pm

So it's been easier lately - SD is soon to be 15 and wanting to spend time with friends - we'd often only have her 2 nights on weekends instead of 3 - sometimes even 1! (We have her every weekend). I'm just pissed because I had my heart set on getting a dog last summer and she threw a conniption fit over it - crying and having a breakdown at the news. So when we finally got the puppy she had been crying all day and annoyed with it - avoiding the poor thing and I'm sure it picked up on her vibe.

How to get your power back?

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Submitted by Delphi on Mon, 07/13/2015 - 6:29pm

So SD is here until Tues :jawdrop: and I tried to stay out of the house as much as possible this weekend in order to compensate...which did help.

But so today, she comes home from camp, plops down in front of the TV and takes over the Living Room with her show which runs from 5:30 until God knows when (it's still on...repeat episodes). DH is in there and they're "hanging out" together with the TV blaring. We live in an Open House concept, and it's small enough where I can EASILY here the TV from all areas of the house.

Just more BS...

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Submitted by Delphi on Fri, 10/17/2014 - 11:58pm

So SD today apparently had a melt-down in school. It's Friday, and she had some kind of "drama" at school over having to come here for the weekend again. So she went to see the school counselor. I was in a good mood today - called DH after work as I normally do to chat on my ride home and he sounds all quiet - I say "what's wrong?" He tells me he's "sad." I say "why?" And then he tells me. SD is going through her "I'm bored when I come here" sh*t yet again. What?

Depressed, Lonely, Sad...

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Submitted by Delphi on Mon, 09/22/2014 - 6:24pm

Sad

I'm back. It's another one of those days. My husband teased me this morning with his "you'll never be ready for kids" comments...(which I've heard numerous times before) whenever I complain about loud children or screaming kids. I know he's just joking, but sometimes it cuts to the quick.

SD12 told DH that she feels "bored" here

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Submitted by Delphi on Sun, 03/09/2014 - 11:41am

Well, so Friday afternoon rolled around and we picked up SD. I was in a fairly good mood at this point, but as soon as SD got in the car, we could tell something was wrong. She was sullen and didn't talk like she normally does. The whole ride home DH and I were chatting between ourselves, and I assumed SD was in the back reading her Kindle (as she normally does) but when DH was asking her directly how she was doing, she didn't respond. He asked her if she was crying?

Just complaining...

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Submitted by Delphi on Fri, 02/21/2014 - 11:21pm

So just venting here. The weekend has begun. Picked up SD12 from her play (she was in a play this week). BM was there with her SO. BM and SO were actually fine and pleasant to deal with.

But when we met with SD12 she didn't even look at me or say "hi". I bought her flowers (which I gave to DH to give to her for her performance) and he gave them to her. She liked them. But what got me was she TOTALLY ignored me - it was like I was invisible. She wouldn't even LOOK at me in front of her BM, BM's SO, and DH. WHATEVER.

I feel lost...

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Submitted by Delphi on Sun, 02/16/2014 - 10:01pm

This is my first blog entry. Partly for my own historical account - partly for help - partly just to see if I'm crazy. And partly, I feel guilty putting all my dirty laundry up here...but anyway...here goes...

I feel lost. I can’t stop crying. I have spent the entire day crying – it’s pathetic. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I keep thinking I need therapy – medication. Maybe this is depression. I don’t know. I haven’t been like this in a long time. It actually scares me on some level because I don’t know where this is coming from.