H went to pick up sd for spring break visitation. Technically per the new CO, its bm's week this year, but she offered it to H. I am going to be busy working all week which I am kind of happy about, but kinda sad as well because I dont know how much more I am going to see sd before me and H most likely split up. I'll be with her all day tomorrow though.

I called a counselor and they are going to try to get me in sometime soon. I hope so. I need to be able to figure out if I should leave this situation (which I am leaning very much towards) and how I should go about saying it to H, because he obviously is not taking the hint with me saying I want a divorce! he keeps saying lets work it out, its just the stress from everything blah blah. I wish we didnt live with my mom so I could just LEAVE!! but since we live here, its kinda hard to go about leaving him when hes the one who would have to leave. and Ive never been a person to talk alot so I am hoping that in the counseling sessions I wont freeze up and i'll be able to say exactly my reasons for feeling like I do. She asked me on the phone what made me want to go to counseling so I just told her...