I went out tonigt without FH and was asked several times where my "other half" was...I also went out the other night without FH and was asked the same thing! I hate this question because I had a single life before FH and nobody said anything. Why do I have to be attached at the hip to FH??? I know a lot of people in our small town so when they see me out and don't see FH they always ask about him...does anyone think that maybe I don't want to be around him sometimes? I hate it...so I've decided I'm going out more often on my own with family, friends, etc.

FH and I got into a conversation the other night and he tells me that it's a 25% to 75% split between us... I was and am somewhat thinking he is thinking that for OUR relationship but I made it very clear that our relationship is 50/50....period! Then he seemed to change the tune towards his kids and said that they are his kids and that all decisions are his in the long run. Ok...fine...make your point but stick to it!

I do have allergies and they've been flairing up but I told FH that I was feel horrible today and couldn't make it to SS9's football game. I am truly having issues with allergies and barely can't see because my eyes are so watery however if I really wanted to go to the game I could've gone. I hate going to that crap because BM is always there and her piece of s-it husband is an assistant coach and if I can help it I will find a way not to be around them.

Maybe it's my own insecurities...maybe it's the way he's been acting or not acting...or maybe it's a woman intuition...however I somewhat feel like FH is cheating. I brought it up a couple weeks ago and he go really defensive and turned it around on me...like I was the guilty one or the one that had a problem... I've been checking his cellphone at night for calls and text messages and most of the sent texts are erased. I know for a fact that he sends texts all the time and tonight I only found one that he sent me a couple days ago.