DH and I were able to sit down and talk without screaming and fighting last night. We aren't sure where our relationship is going at this point - if DH and SS7 will move out or if we're going to give it another shot. We're going to take some time and think things thru for now and give each other some space, in the same space. To say the least, it's awkward.

When everyone got home last night we sat down with SS7 and BD1 and we both apologized for yelling and fighting. We explained that we should not have been acting that way and yelling is never the answer. I hugged SS7 tight and told SS7 that I don't hate him, that I love him very much, and that I'm strict with him because I want him to be a good boy. SS7 cried. I cried. DH cried. BD1 snuggled me close.

Things aren't perfect and I'm not sure they ever will be. But they're peacful. I know that the path we were on was to no where good and if nothing else comes out of this, we've avoided the end results of that path and were on a new path to somewhere good (hopefully).

I've contacted a counselor and I hope to have my first session tomorrow. DH hasn't agreed to attend with me and I'm ok with that. All I know is that there is too much going on for me to try to handle alone and I'm seeking the help I know I need.