My mom left me when I was 4 years old, thankfully my dad was a wonderful dad, him and my SM did a decent job of raising me. I have so much resentment toward my mom but now that I'm about to become a mother, I thought we could mend our relationship and maybe for once in her life my mom can be there for me. But oh no! Between the drama caused by my ssons' BM and my own mother's selfish behavior, I'm out of energy!

In the last few days, ss6 has made numerous drawing of his "family" in some of them I'm included and in others BM is included and on some of them I'm left off. Yesterday after I spent my whole afternoon playing with him and helping him clean his room, he told me he's going to draw a picture. A few minutes later he came back proudly with a drawing with five people in it. He was so proud of his family portrait and proceeded to tell me who's who in the drawing : him, BM, ss5, DH and my little girl. He told me I'm not in the picture because I'm not his family.

I swear, I can only ignore so many of the emails from you telling me what food I should feed the kids while they're with us 4 days a week. Who the hell do you think you are to send me a "menu" ? You're right they are your kids, I didn't give birth to them but you know what? For the past 3 plus years, I see them and spend more time with them each week than you. I know what they like and don't like. I'm not an idiot, I know how to take care of them! Why is it that you always justify your demands by saying you're their mother. So what?

Since the day I met him, SS6(then 2.5 years old) and I clicked instantly. We have a close relationship, he would much rather go places with me than with DH, he loves to cuddle with me, wants me to be the one to read to him, etc... We have our moments but I can honestly say in the last 3.5 years I truly enjoy having him in my life and watching him grow.