SS did not come out the whole day, not even to eat. He disappeared again last night. Then, around 12 midnight (we think), he snuck out. He comes back in at 6 am this morning. He was drunk. Are you kidding me?? Thank god my kids were asleep. My husband asks him where he has been. You know what SS says? "just been whoring around again". And then the next second he starts crying and locks himself in his room. My husband tried getting him to come out and he would not. We wanted to remove the door. But our landlady said we could not do that because the alignment gets messed up or something like that. Which sucks for us because SS keeps locking himself in the room. All we do now is use the keys to open the door but SS moved his freaking closet to block it. We know now that the closet has to go out of his room. SS needs counselling but he refuses to accept the help.

I feel so hopeless. I feel bad for SS and and at the same time I wish he would just go away and allow us to stop fighting. My husband was sad that SS said what he did. He really did not mean to make the whore comment, it just slipped out. I did manage to convince him not to give SS the money. SS has a part-time job anyway. That is probably where he gets the money to buy pot and booze. I told my husband I was NOT baking a cake after SS decided to come home drunk. So now my husband will be buying a cake. I don't care about his kid anymore. He just makes me miserable.